Well, last week I enrolled Stevi in Monticello Montessori Public Charter School. We had a
really rough week the week before, struggling with getting the work done, focusing on what we were doing, and just getting along in general. However, after having her in school for a week, I'm no more at peace with the decision than I was when I enrolled her.
I spent a very rough night the Friday before, and when I took her to school, was nervous all day. Stevi's feedback on the whole thing is, overall, kind of negative. She keeps getting in trouble because she's very talkative, which doesn't surprise me. What does surprise me (somewhat) is that the teacher seems not to have much patience or liking for Stevi. I do understand, she has 29 students she has to teach in a day, but regardless, I expect my child to be treated well. I also understand no one is going to be as patient with her as I will, and maybe this is good for her to learn early.
However, as I'm contemplating sending her back this week (and I've essentially decided I will. And then decided I won't. And then I will. And then I won't.), I'm really struggling with the decision. Stevi says she doesn't want to go back. Should I really make her? Or has either one of us really given this a chance? Do I want her to like it? I don't think I do, and if that's the case, am I influencing her
not to like it? Is
that fair? Sheesh.
People keep telling me this will be good for her. It's going to be good for her to learn how to deal with other kids, how to play nicely, etc. But I don't think she plays
meanly to begin with. She is definitely strong-willed, and I think this would help her temper just a bit, but I don't know how much of that I want to go away. Not to mention we found this wonderful co-op and only had the chance to go
one time before we decided to do the Montessori school. I think
that was going to be a huge help to her in getting along with other kids. Not to mention the fact that getting along with
kids isn't the skill she needs, it's getting along with
adults that will help her throughout her life.
BLEH. That's all I can really say about it. BLEH, I have decided, though, if I do keep her home, we are going to be
totally revamping the way we do our school day. No more getting up whenever, starting around the time we lay the baby down, etc. Nope. It will be up at 7:00, morning routine, get dressed, eat breakfast, get started. Then hopefully we can be
done by the time we lay the baby down. And I really think we can, too.
Anyway, I'm still ruminating, but I'll write when we make the final decision.